• 13:23 OW OW OW my shoulder is jacked. and I only has one flexerall left, and a lot to do before the Company Picnic. crappity-crap! #
• 20:10 it's that time again - contemplating the tasks to be done is staggering, yet the playa is so close and exhilarating I can almost smell it. #

mwah!

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"I don't rap about bitches and hos,
I rap about witches and trolls
-- "Frodo, Don't Wear the Ring" by Flight of the Concords

I have just created a new journal, auroraintheskye. Please add this to your friends list.

Over the next couple of weeks I will probably pare down my friends list over here as I try to migrate things over there. I will keep this journal, but move more towards use for personal explorations and private reflections only. As such there will only be a few close, personal friends here when everything has been changed over. Please understand. I still love you! =)

More explanation can be found here.


Okay, I'm starving and I need to get to bed soon...... More from me later........ =)

I'm seriously thinking about opening up a second journal... one with a more public persona attached... writing for an audience rather than what I do now. Then I can keep this one for its intended purpose.... a braindump, a place for personal catharsis, a place where I can work out my issues and occasionally get feedback from others... usually my closest and dearest friends. I have two conflicting issues at work here... My desire and need to share what's going on with those closest to me, even if they live far afield. Sometimes it's really helpful and grounding to get a bit of perspective and insight, comfort, empathy, love and understanding. I have a hard time hiding how I really feel from anyone, least of all those who know me best. I can't mask my emotions, nor do I desire to be factitious in saying that I'm okay when I'm not. I am terrible at putting up a facade, nor do I ever care to put on pretensions otherwise.

On the other hand I am also an intensely private individual with those outside of my closest and most trusted circle. There are certain things that I share openly and freely and so many other things that I choose to keep to myself. I think that other's perception of my supposed openness is often skewed, for they do not know the depth of what they do not see.

The question over the last few months has always been... How much do I let others into the mess going on in my head? At which point do I start to share the unabashed, raw & chaotic issues churning around in my head? My solution has been to keep the rawest stuff private, the relationship stuff to a very tightly controlled filter of people who I trust most deeply, and then there is a whole lot of stuff that falls into the gray space of not being quite as raw as others and yet still very personal and very real.

Initially when I opened up my friends list last fall I only added a few people at a time... very slowly.... people who I had conversations with typically and wanted to get to know better. I tried to be up front about the need for me to use my journal as a personal exploration space. But, left it up to the reader to decide whether or not they wanted to read my stuff or get to know me from the inside out. It isn't often that I write for others, though occasionally I write knowing that I may need to explain something to someone new to my journal.


( more context and exploration of the need to change things around here )

Hi, I'm divine_fanaticy. I'm letting go of some things, and they are up at my sales journal. This post has a few gothicky things of interest, but there are also some other items for sale. Please check it out!

Hello. I'm desperately trying to look for someone who would like to buy two Detour Festival tickets for $45 each. It's on October 4th in Downtown LA at 12:00 P.M. If you're interested, please reply back on here or to Kabukikat16@yahoo.com. The Mars Volta (headliners) and many other bands will be there (you can look it up if you don't know who else is going to be there! :] )

Thanks for your time!

Hey there all - I have a sewing education space on the northern edge of Silverlake, at Rowena & Hyperion. I just have enough room to teach classes to 6 people max (which is how I like it) and I have a little tiny space for a shelf of really cool fabric & some sewing supplies. All of my students want more cool fabric (who doesn't?) and a lot of people ask about where to get decent sewing machines. I'm very seriously considering opening up a fabric store in the Sunset / Alvarado area that will have some machines as well. It's a little scary, but my gut is saying to go for it.

Thoughts? Ideas? Input on rents? Nice folks in the area? I have walked around many times, but never with an eye to locate there.

Just wanted to send a reminder that my auctions are ending shortly for cheap-o Lip Service Tokyo Rose Kimonos, some Kicking the Habit items, Queen of Hearts cami tops and dresses, Division LS II shirts, Devil Dolls II halter tops, Salon Du Pop dresses (last ones!!) and Tomorrow's Parties long skirts!!

They are here: http://search.ebay.ca/_W0QQsassZdollhaus-clothing and ending in a couple of hours!

When I got home from the endodontist a shipment of western wear had arrived. Most of it was for Erich, but there were some accent pieces to work with things I already have, including some boots.

Erich says my "lady rancher" look is very "headed down to the local lesbian honkytonk." I look very different from my usual look, but it's a cool look.

Or perhaps it's just the codeine talking. Dude, nearly eight hours mostly pain free (interestingly I still feel the tooth pain but not the jaw pain).

Finally!
New Ordinance Holding Taggers and their Parents Liable for Damages


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A special Old World night!!! Come dressed up for the occasion! Hopefully we'll have our new CD "No Hands To Guide Us" to sell by then. Please check out the bands and add them to your Friends!:

http://www.myspace.com/unextraordinarygentlemen

http://www.myspace.com/harlequinjones

http://www.myspace.com/redlightdistrictx

http://www.myspace.com/gritthemusic

I have to get in on the birthday wishes too...

Happy birthday to redhot_soul, a lovely lady with a lovely heart...

Happy birthday to 23od - we miss you man!

Happiest of days to redhot_soul

I saw an endodontist this morning. He was reluctant to do the root canal today because (a) he didn't want to further traumatize my jaw muscle by poking more stuff into it and (b) I'm leaving town on vacation on Friday. He said that this tooth is a good candidate for a root canal, though.

So.

He gave me prednisone to continue to reduce the inflammation and tylenol-3 to manage the pain. I have to say, it is awesome, the pain is completely gone and I don't actually feel high. A little sleepy and a little chatty, but let's face it, it's hard to tell "chatty me" from "normal me." I'm also a bit unfocused, but I was already significantly unfocused because of the pain -- I'll take "unfocused, but no pain" over "unfocused, but ready to chop my face off" any day. He says the jaw inflammation, which is my chief source of pain, should go away within a day or two as long as he doesn't jab it again.

So I have another appointment with him thursday morning to discuss further pain management and whether to do the root canal before I leave. I *may* get the root canal done then, depending on the condition of my jaw.

The ENT I saw Monday, my dentist's partner, the endodontist and my mother all seem confident that my ear pain will subside as the tooth pain goes away. I have less faith than that because my ear has been hurting for a while, but.. we'll see. I still have a CT scan scheduled for when I get back.

So, yes, of course I'm procrastinating.

But the real point is - I'm kind of wondering why this doesn't suck.

Moving sucks. Packing sucks. Change is hard.

Only, I'm kind of digging this. A lot, even.

And it finally dawned on me that my last several moves have been break-up oriented or financially disastrous panic-ridden I DON'T WANT TOs.

This isn't.

I'm going someplace swell, because I want to. I have plenty of time to do it right. If I'm not insanely wrong, I can even afford to contract out the absolutely hideous parts. Jeff's helping and we're even talking about the pieces he's going to build for my new room and the amount of time he's going to spend there and what the future might could look like.

This is pretty fucking cool.

happy to see that there is going to be perrrrrfect weather for our home coming to BRC!!!!! http://www.weather.com/weather/tenday/89412?from=36hr_fcst10DayLink_undeclared

my husband looked yesterday. they had thunderstorms, and then clear skies the rest of the time.
the storms will help pat down the dust

what I bought today isn't going to get me very far. I'm trolling craigslist as well, I'm just saying.

This is the "take it away" sale! :P

ALL ITEMS INCLUDE US SHIPPING!
Feel free to make offers too!

warning: lots of pics
Lip service clothing, dogpile mini skirt, Betsey Johnson etc,

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